masterplate

its been a long time since i listened to the programme. actually, this is the second time i am writing this, since blooger couldn't publish this. and i forgotten what i wrote already. so, i am not going to bother writing it again. basically, its a radio programme that features the best ogf european dance music. used to hear it every saturday night.

did i mention the chinese table tennis player looked kinda cute? haha. erm. yeah. plus, the female gymnast were great. bodies too hot. i was kinda wide-eyed when watching them perform. sexy outfits too. HA! oh man. i can't get that jap girl out of my head. she's too damn cute, and hot, and sexy, and perfect. the way she flew, so perfect man. haha. i thik she's 22 or 23. *fantasizing* just kidding. the others were not bad too. with the canadian teen. woah. hot hot hot. anyway. that's another reason why we watch the olymipics. to admire the perfect toned bodies. hmm, speaking of tone, the swimmers' one rocks. though, yes, i am jealous of them. so toned. ha. okay. back to the topic. the sinagporean table tennis player, jia wei. i'm supporting her all the way. she proven herself, and we can't expect much more. she's done her best in representing singapore. and i'm proud of her, as you should be.

just spent 3 hours on my geography assignment. what should have beem just an hour became three. crazy. now, i'm left with english essay and chemistry homework. haven't watched AVP yet. couldn't get people to watch. especially, when some of my friends watched it already. argh. nothing much to write about. just my desk and i. don't know what's going to happen this few months. so unpredictable. logging off now.

the goofy-est show.

who watched the new television programme on tv: my big fat obnoxious fiance.

it toally rocks. it was so damn funny, watching the big fat ass, making crude jokes. comments: watchable. i really pity the lady, for having to put up with him for god-knows how many days. but, that's the power of money. yup. the lady and the fat ass are putting up a show foreveryone, so that they can win a million if they succeed. greed, my friend. that's greed. time of the show, friday nights, 10pm.

heard a lot about the new movie AVP, alien versus predator for short. looks cool on the posters, but critics say its a goofy show. haven't seen it myself, therefore nowhere to make a comment. but based on the testimonials my friend gave to me about the show, it sounds nice and attractive enough to spend $8.50 on it. either catch it tomorrow, which is highly unlikely, or on sunday, which too the possibilty of it falls below the lowest point. ha. again, it "looks" nice.

back to studying i am, spending a few more minutes each day studying, revising for the upcoming prelims. its too close for comfort. and i'm not even half prepared. soemone just help me! the triathlon's next week. cycling training isn't enough. haven't even started yet. argh. reminder to myself: go to phillip's house for often. ha. he's going to screw me for that. *listening to ou de yang's siu siu siu. perfect melody for this monotonus night* subjects for tmorrow revision. would be social studies, e and a maths. plus physics if time allows for it (at night probably). planning o start in the morning since i'm not going ECP to train. swimming in the afternoon perhaps. there, a day of mine.

sunday no better. completion of my geography homework, on tourism. miss foo expects at least a 2 page answer. crazy. following whch will be mr quayle's composition. both will take up at leats half a day already. chemistry homework for my beloved miss jazilah! she totally rocks my life. HA! xiao jaz jie jie forever! busy man i seem to be. agreed?

i happen to get back the old mould of my teeth, before it was fixed, with the honours going to my dentist. it looks horrible, with teeth poking out of nowhere, up and down. horrible. that, will be a reminder for me take care of my teeth. woah. getting this drowsy feeling, like i'm floating around, when i sit down in front of the computer for some time. i think i'm going crazy. prelims are coming in another, say 14 plus days. that leaves about 2 days for one subject. the revision of the whole subject. i haven't even excluded anything else like meals or what. its really that close, my friend. time to pick up our guts and study.

"you the only person i want to understand"- jay

the english O level oral.

hmm. the title says it all, doesn't it? need i elaborate?

ha. anyway. today had my oral paper. couldn't say it was much of a success. the examiners were looking elsewhere before my turn even cam. with me being the last three, i'm sure the examiners have already heard the same thing over and over again, too many times before. thus, making my mistakes in reading extremely obvious. passage was about some 38 year old woman who went to some foreign country to work as volunteer, and not missing home. yes. no dialogue. none at all. bad news for me. the time given for me to prepare just wan't enough. made me too anxious. fumbled on a few words here and there, during the passage. the picture was a bit bad. before i said anything, they already asked me, "please describe the lady in the picture." i mean, weren't they supposed to let me talk first before prompting me?! so i went on, just doing what they said, and continued to talk about the picture. blah blah blah, *note: a picture about a few pre-school kids listening to the lady tell a story isn't really a good picture* the worst thing is, i forgotten to interpret the pictue! ARGH! the most important part. ow could i have been so careless. the conversation was better. asked me, tell me about a time when you felt really lonely and, given a chance, would you like to go overseas to work. argh. stupid questions. why can't i get my friends' questions like, do you think would you survive on a island for thirty days and tell me what do you do during free time. come on. these are easier topics which i gladly would want to talk about. argh.

no matter what, there was some sort of a nodding session when i spoke. and the examiners laughed abit. hope that's a good sign though. anyway. getting sleepy. signing off.

good luck handshake,a tradition passed down centuries ago, till today it still exists. amazing.- me

voices i hear.

its the lunar seventh month. practically, almost all the chinese has started to offer incense paper offerings, burning them in the containers provided by the authorities.

my dad, a strong believer in the after-life, has influenced me too, to believe in this beliefs he has. a combination of taoist and buddhist teachings, make up my family's religion. so, you can expet us to be quite superstitious at times. my dad and mum, started the rituals yesterday. i wanted t go along with him downstairs, to burn the offerings, too bad i had homework, which forbidded me to go along. one other thing that made me so interested in all these, is the spectacular performance made by the cracking flames. it never fails to amaze me with its art of moving. a fire never's the same with another. its all difference, like a human's fingerprint, never identical. amazing isn't it.

it starts. with the lighting of joss sticks, praying in the four directions, later chucking it into the ground. followed by the candles, which are red in colour. a small portion of our dinner is also offered, so with tea leaves and some crackers. my mum never allows me to have a go at them. says its not edible. ha. the offering of the papers follows. about 5 small stacks of different types of incense paper are burned. the samll amount of carbon and pollutants produced can never be compared to what the industrial world is emitting. a few minutes of these fires, may be equivalent to just a few seconds of the mountainous clouds of black smoke produced by the burning of fossil fuels and oil wells. so, don't you go telling us off about the environmental issues. i will hit your head. *smack* ita ll ends after ten minutes of heat, and most of the time, tears. can't prevent it. smoke always enters the eyes. that's the only bad thing. oh yes. and you smell of smoke too. haha.

changing over the years, what have i got in the end?- me

"friends"

haha. just caught friends on television. they never fail to make me laugh. especially joey's blur like sotong expressions, ross's slow reactions, and chandlier's jokes(not very sure how his name is spelt).

haiz. each day passes, closer it gets to the prelims, and ultimately, the Os. how many hours i waste, i feel so very guilty of. time is now so important. rushing for it i should be. i promise myself, i will change. change myself, for the better. i will get the results i want. i can, and i will. as long there is determination, i shall my foot out to prove others wrong.

naval divers has this saying, " whatever happens, just suck it in." this temporary setback, i will take and absorb as a lesson. it shall prove to be my stepping stone into the highlands of the unknown. my life awaits, shining so ever brightly.

no more time would be wasted on doing nothing. it should be used to do at least something beneficial to myself, regardless the nature of it. as of the things that weighs my body down, sprirtually, mentally, physically, overcome them i will. hopefully, hopefully, my friend.

trying to get the triathlon out of the way. in another two weeks. leaves me about 2 training sessions at east coast park. a few sessions at the pool, tracks, and the bike. i don't even know whether i can make it, needless to say, encouraging my two friends to keep up. my limitaions will be reached that day. pain will be ignored. humilation will be present too. that will be prove to be another examination for me. as i have done so this few years, in school, suffering at the hands of humilation. embarassment, some incidents were. made me tougher they had, make me weaker to compliments they also did.

i envy people, who has people in love with them, as they are in the other. so happy together. when would it be my turn, to hold a person in my arms, looking into the sky together, or take a stroll along the fountain of wealth at suntec city, enjoying the night colours of the performances being held, hand in hand. when, i ask. if i ever have the chance, to be blessed with a opportunity, to tell that person, i would give it up. sometimes, if things are meant to be, they will be, i would rather not affect the relationship i now have with the person. its better this way.

live in the bottom of the waters. there alone is independence. there alone, i recognise no masters.- me

mugging.

woke up at ten thirty.

had breakfast at eleven fifteen.

studying and revising since eleven forty five. that is until three. was lectured by my sister during this time. reason: i was not doing the correct way of revising. i mean, what else you want me to. i know time's short, but things have to taken one step at a time. i'm just not that yet. okay. caught the repeat telecast of national day parade on channel eight, whilst talking to liying online. we talked about the chinese Os, how easy was it to get a distinction, and all sorts. back to the tv, caught the naval diving unit's colours! was damn excited. jumping up and down i was, screaming, yelling in excitement. i think i'm becoming the next evonne. the navy contingent was damn cool, with naval divers in it of course.

anyway. the parade commander, woah. too many wings on his chest. haha. two local badges and one foreign wing pin. plus a few medals. haha. he looked damn cool. the 2nd parade commander was just a lieutanant. and he got so many pins! wings, on his right and left, and the pin i respect most. the grade 58(i think) combat diver. (its the one in grey colour with the star) i so admire that guy. *hopes to be like him one day* haha. one thing i noted. SAF do hormats different with ncc. they don't shoot out their hands. strange, but true.

anyway. the day's spent, quite fruitfully. i think this will be a typical day with time to come. revision, revision, mugging.

"the adults don't get it. or grandma wants is your company. not your six hundred dollars,"- jay